Missing my mom!

I knew that one day my mom would get old and no longer be here with me. What I didn’t know was that it would happen way too soon. My mom was only 66 years young when she passed from this world to the next. I just was not ready!

The thing is that my mom always seemed so young, at least till she got sick. We don’t even really know what made her sick. I tend to think she had Fibromyalgia because I’ve been diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and many of the symptoms are the same.

I am thankful that my mom and I were very close. We did many things together and lived very close so we were able to see each other often. I talked to here on the phone every day and greatly miss those conversations.

She has been gone for 9 years now and it still feels like it was just yesterday.

The last few years of her life were the worse for her and I feel like I should have been there for her more. Guilt is a hard thing to live with! I had moved an hour away and found it difficult to spend much time with her and when I did she always had a list of things she needed done. I was always glad to help but it took away from just time to sit and chat. If I had only known that I only had that single year left I would have made more time.

It saddens me that my mom didn’t get to meet her great grandchildren. My son named his first daughter Kendall which was my mom’s maiden name. My mom would have been so pleased.

My mom’s passing made me take a hard look at my own life and realize that life is too short not to make the most of what you have. I try to travel as much as I can and experience new opportunities, make new friends and enjoy life. I don’t want to have any regrets.

Mother’s Day brings all these feelings and heartaches to the forefront. I miss my mom!

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My first blog

Sometimes you just need a place to write down your thoughts and feelings. I’m not a person that likes to share a lot of information or at least I’m careful what what I share. Though I think I keep way too much bottled up inside and wish I had an outlet for things that way heavy on my mind.